transient

This post could probably be dedicated to hating the temperamentality of film photography but I will limit myself because it's not very interesting! Basically I went to develop film yesterday and tried rewinding it but couldn't feel anything moving, so I opened the camera up in the dark and all the film was back in the canister already despite not having rewound it. I know for a fact that half way through the roll it was shooting properly because I could hear the film advancing (I am always super paranoid so listen closely to ensure it is properly inserted/working blah) but somewhere between it being in school and taking it to be developed someone has exposed the film (pulled it all out I guess) and I guess shoved it back into the canister  This is the only scenario I can come up with. I shall not leave my camera unguarded in future. Anyways these photos are more from ones I am unsure about - I only went out to revise so my outfit is boring. The top half didn't make me want to puke because I wore a lurex mesh top underneath my cardigan that matched the monochrome colour scheme to match my mood #hashtagstillangry (revision contributes to current  omnipresent mood) but the skirt is irritating because it is kinda green and yellow plaid not black and white. I think I have some sort of illness because I feel uncomfortable all day if the colours/pattern of what I'm wearing isn't cohesive.

These plastic hoop earrings are my new favourite thing. They were £1.99 from eBay for a set of 3 of varying sizes. The collar is one I ordered from eBay in November but it arrived like, last week. The cardigan is from eBay too (what a surprise(i have problems)).

THIS PHOTO IS VERY RELEVANT. I went down to the river to take some photos for my forever promised non -reality-zine that is waning in production ages ago. This episode was the first time my film didn't work. I won't go into details because it will only anger me because the photos would have been SO good. This is one of the only digital ones I have.

This was also going to be in the zine that may or may not be happening eventually or not maybe not if I can't muster the motivation to finish it. It's just a double exposure of a photo of me from last summer but it's the same place we revisited to take new photos.

Again my absence has been due to exams/feeling guilty planning doing anything but revision then procrastinating because I haven't allowed myself to go out but then not actually revising or getting anyThing done. After exams I really really really want to blog more often. I have more urge to but I can't exercise it because of the studying lark.

- Hollie